
He was really precise about it as well - making sure we all had the same
number of gifts, even the same number of big gifts and small gifts. And we got
big gifts too! Dressing tables, bikes, one year we looked out the window and
Santa had left us a massive trampoline. This is something that has continued
with my kids – it is handy because we don’t get them much knowing that my
parents will spoil them rotten just like they spoilt us.
When I was about 10 my parents had the wall separating the dining room
and the living room removed to make it one big space. This meant that when I was
little, on Christmas morning, the rule in my family was we weren't allowed to
go into the lounge until everyone was up, dressed and had breakfast. We weren't
even allowed to open the door to the lounge to sneak a peek at what Santa had
left us and if we did we were in trouble. You imagine being 5 years old and
knowing that Santa has just left a pile of presents on the other side of the
door and you can’t even look at them – it was a mixture of joy and torture –
and it was so fun!
I wish I could feel like that more often. I am not satisfied with saying
that I am grown up now - so I will never feel that way again, because there
have been times as an adult when I have felt that way. Leading up to my wedding
for example, coming back home from the UK, having my babies -I had that same
Christmas morning feeling of excitement and anticipation for all of these
events in my life.
This is what draws me to the Wise Men in the Christmas story.
Herod heard that the Wise Men were in town looking for the new-born King
of the Jews. So he gathers a group of priests and religious scholars to ask
them where the king will be born. The scene in my mind is of a frightened,
paranoid Herod telling this group of scholars about the foreigners in town
looking for a new king. Feeling more of an allegiance to Herod than to God at
this point, they tell him where the king will be born.
And then they do nothing.
They do not quickly pack their bags to join the
Wise Men on the journey. There is no excitement, no nervous anticipation that
this might just be the one they have been waiting for. When I read this I get
the impression that their response is kind of, “yeah right, we’ll see”.

‘They could hardly contain themselves.’ That is how I felt on Christmas morning as a child, and I wish I could feel that way more often now.
I am always trying to avoid disappointment. If you are familiar with my
blogs already, then you will know that my husband and I even created a word for
it – Grinching, which basically means to manage your expectations in order to
avoid disappointment.
Even though my husband and I created this term there are times when
grinching is not good. Where instead of protecting ourselves from disappointment
and being cynical it is better to step out of our comfort zones, like the Wise
Men, and have more of an expectation that something great is about to happen.
This can be applied to so many areas of life. For example, when someone
you know is really trying to change their lives for the better, or trying to
loose weight, or break a bad habit. It can even be appiled to faith.
I do not always act like one of the Wise Men when it comes to faith. I am sometimes more like one of the religious
scholars. I know a lot about God. I went to Bible College after all! But I do
not always live out, or get remotely excited about what I know. It is safer to just
wait and see what happens.
The trouble with faith is that it makes a fool out of you. It is cooler
to be cynical.
I love a good dose of cynicism. It is the reason I love British comedy.
There is less cheese and it has a cutting edge to it. It is even easy to be
cynical at Christmas. When you are cynical and you have no expectations and you
don’t take risks - you don’t get made a fool of and you are not disappointed. Hope
and faith, and anticipation can make you appear very foolish. Cynicism may be
cool, but it is not always fun, and you do not grow.
This is the first lesson that the Wise Men taught me; to get excited about
the things that are worth getting excited about. Because ultimately I am on a journey and I
trust that, like the Wise Men, there is something wonderful waiting for me at
the end.
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